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CHANGES July 1st, 2010 1:45am
Things have been changing for me for a while now, and so I've been thinking about doing more with this site to keep up with it. That is how it is with life, right? Dynamic.
When I first moved out to Hollywood to attend Bass Institute of Technology, I was pretty open to whatever and where ever. Still am, for the most part. However, I've rediscovered how much I appreciate a certain routine in life. Not moving around so much. There's a certain solace in knowing where the nearest grocery store is. Where your favorite restaurants are. It's nice to feel at home and comfortably familiar with the streets in your neighborhood. That sort of thing. To have the same routine in getting up in the morning. A routine for waking up and figuring what time to get to work. It's particularly nice to not have to use an alarm clock, but rather wake up whenever and then figure out the rest of the day. This might sound like basic stuff to most, but for the first couple of years after my separation I was almost quite literally homeless while waiting for my divorce to finalize. After 21 years of marriage it was hard for me to realize how hard it would be to start over. That's a lot of years of memories and life. Kids, career, friends and family. Now I think that much of what I did was escapism. Playing with my various bands and wondering what was next and where it would lead. Kind of "shell shocked" and putting off dealing with much of the pain that comes with this sort of thing. And Musicians Institute was much of the same. Busy every day doing what I love to do. Practicing, playing and learning new music. After graduating, I decided to take some time off and just chill. Things had been in such a state of disarray for so long that I needed to just get comfortable in my own skin again. Regain that feeling of familiarity. So, while deciding where I would like to go in music, and leaving my past career in landscape construction, for the past year or so I've been working a part time job at the Starbucks in the Los Feliz area of Los Angeles, just east of Hollywood where I live. It's a job I absolutely love. Simple, easy, and I love coffee. Can't get enough. I practice as much as I can, but I've lost much of the drive I used to have. I think it's the business side of it. I hate big business these days. And watching people step all over each other in a mad rush to "get theirs" and suck up to the industry people is something I'm finding repulsive. As much as I love Bass and music, I'm not sure I want to be a part of that. I don't particularly want to do the casuals either, at least not for a living. It's great for an occasional break. To get together with friends and play for a party or club thing.
Now, however, I'm finding a new, increased solace in my faith. I'm finding a new home at Ecclesia Church in Hollywood. Playing in the band there and getting to know the people there have been stellar. I'm not so much about playing for money anymore, just playing with meaning. For a purpose. When it comes right down to it, I've found, I don't need that much. I'm Happy. Understanding how Christ and his spirit has kept me over the past 5 years is comforting, shocking and revealing all at the same time. The mysteries of life and the human condition continue to be a fascination of mine. The goodness of God towards us and his creation is an awesome and humbling realization too. So I'm looking forward to playing and applying my talents and abilities when ever and where ever possible to further his ends. And I plan to "just roll with it", which is now a favorite saying of mine. However long it takes, where ever it takes me, I have few requirements or demands. To just be, and do in the moment, what I should be doing and being. That's enough for me.
Kinda sleepy now....gotta hit it.
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